Epilogue

So that was that.

I picked up the pieces of my life.

DH had to learn to cope with his boss being on not too great terms with him.

Things were tough. It was a horrible time but we got through it.

I was diagnosed in September as having Bipolar Disorder.

Given my mental health this year we haven’t done any more swinging.

Well, DH has played occasionally with a gay couple he is very good friends and I’m glad to say that I had absolutely no icky feelings about this.

And it seemed to help him feel sparky again.  Talking about that afterwards he really had that twinkle in his eyes that I love so much.

Our relationship is good again.

As for DH and Matt. Their work relationship remained cool but professional, much to DH’s credit.

Matt emailed me months later.  Just a regular…”we have changed our email address”.

I responded only to let him know that I was surprised to receive it, given that he never wanted to speak to me again and therefore was going to assume it had been sent in error.

He replied again that he had noticed my name when he sent it to his email contacts “but thought it would be churlish” to miss me out.

WTF?

I didn’t email back.
However.

The reason all of this is on my mind again.

DH was away at his work’s annual conference at the start of the year.

Matt is no longer his boss.

They got on okay.  DH says they were “cordial.”

But he has been back up to the office a few times since then and it seems their friendship has been rekindled.

By time maybe.

Time and space.

I know DH has missed his friend very much.

I feel guilty in the part I played in screwing that up.

I never meant for anything bad to happen.

And so last week the subject “of all that business” was alluded to by Matt during a cigarette break.

He apparently told DH that he felt kind of bad the way it had all ended. That he had planned to invite us up to try and smooth things over but then heard through DH’s new boss that I was “unwell” and so he decided he didn’t want to risk upsetting me?

Decent of him?

I don’t know.

The whole subject being brought up again…I’m still not sure how I feel.

I guess this is me trying to figure it out.

My next posts I want to explore polyamory.  What does it mean to me.  Is it who I am?

I need to decide two things really.

Do I still want to be (and am I capable of being) friends with this guy?

And even if the answer is no, do I still want a polyamorous lifestyle?

to be continued…

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