Epilogue

So that was that.
I picked up the pieces of my life.
DH had to learn to cope with his boss being on not too great terms with him.
Things were tough. It was a horrible time but we got through it.
I was diagnosed in September as having Bipolar Disorder.
Given my mental health this year we [...]

The letter I never sent

Dear Matt,
You don’t want to talk to me again? Fine. But since I had to listen to you take all of your baggage out on me on Friday night then you can at least allow me the courtesy of responding to it.
First of all, this whole thing about me sending “inappropriate texts.” [...]

A hard lesson

When DH got home that night I was already livid.
He phoned Rose and tried to work out what the hell was going on.  Why was she being a bitch? I f she hadn’t been happy about something why not just speak to me about it?  They started arguing.  I could [...]

okay…so not the end

Whilst I was at my mum’s Matt continued to phone.
He didn’t want to lose me as a friend.
He did love me “but not like that.”
Funny how someone telling you they love you can hurt so much.
I told him fine. We’d stay friends. But I wanted to no more flirting. [...]

The end?

But end, it did.
If anything our last night just made all the more confused.
I felt utterly torn.  I wanted all three of us to be together but that was just crazy.  Me and Rose were already on frosty terms with each other.  Skirting around each other and both trying to [...]

My two lovers

And so Matt came home with DH that Friday night.
I cooked us all a wonderful meal.
We flirted gently.
The wine flowed. Music played on the stereo.
For a while DH fell asleep on the couch and me and Matt sat and talked and talked. Stroking and cuddling. Nothing more.
DH woke up in the early [...]

Getting complicated

I missed Matt like mad.  We hadn’t been in touch so much.  To make matters even harder Rose was texting DH constantly.  I felt jealous.
Me jealous…?
The woman who happily shared her husband with strangers.  It didn’t make any sense.
DH shared the details of his night with me, [...]

Cheating?

The very next week DH had the opportunity. He was up their way on business. He was booked into a hotel that week but managed to wangle a dinner invite over at Matt and Rose’s place. Matt must have been informed or have gotten the message because when bedtime happened he went [...]

Love messes with your head

I should never have slept with him.
Having sex with him was probably stupid enough.
We met in bar and within a few hours things had become so electric we booked into a hotel.
This was our first “date”.
Rose phoned up whilst we were in the middle of things. He explained to her we had gone [...]

How I fell in love again

The story continues…
Matt was good with words. I’ve always liked that in a man. And he was good at flirting. Before long things were getting a bit on the steamy side. I started feeling guilty. And filled with desire at the same time.
I fessed up to DH. Explained [...]